The past few months back in New Zealand have been a time for many things. It has been a time of healing, recovery, rest and definitely a time of refining. The Lord has taught me many things and has poured an abundance of grace upon me. The Lord has continually confirmed my desire and the calling He has on my life to do ministry, in whatever form and on whatever continent that may be.
In coming home I had a burning desire to be apart of a church, to fully be involved and dedicated to the people and the heart of the church. My prayer being home has been that the Lord would continue to direct my steps and guide me in the way that He has for me, while teaching me to be active and patient in waiting upon Him for the next step. The Lord faithfully brought those two desires and prayers together over the past few months. As I have been serving with my family at Calvary Chapel Bible Institute New Zealand (CCBI) and being apart of what they do I was able to get more involved and attend Shoreline Church more frequently. It soon became apparent to me that this was the church that I would love to call my home. The Lord blessed me with an opportunity to spend 10 days straight ministering alongside Shoreline Church and truly gave me a heart for the Church and for the people in it. I love the passion and the heart the church has for reaching out to the lost and teaching the Word of God. So I began to pray more seriously about moving that hour and half north to be closer to the church and have more opportunity to be involved. When making decisions like this in the past the Lord usually just tells me to take steps of faith and doesn’t necessarily confirm in bright lights “this is the way”. I really wanted the Lord to confirm to me this next step through His Word. So I simply prayed that He would and within 24 hours He faithfully did just that. Although being the way I am I didn’t quite see it that way for a few days. The Lord showed me 3 specific things through the book of Isaiah. Isaiah 6:8 “…Here I am send me” is the willingness to listen and to obey the Lord’s will. Isaiah 12:2 “Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and will not be afraid; for the LORD GOD is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation”, am I willing to trust Him in my fears and worries that come with taking a step of faith. Isaiah 30:21, “And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, ‘This is the way, walk in it,’ when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left”, will I step out in faith when the Lord clearly says to me step out. The Lord used these verses to show me the 3 steps that He had been guiding me through since I got home in September.
All of this is pointing me in the direction of walking, I have continued praying about taking this next step and trying to be active in looking for the practicalities that come with moving. My hope in sharing this is to produce two things, firstly to encourage that our Lord is active and faithful to speak when we are willing to listen, have open ears to hear Him when He is speaking. Secondly, I am hoping to be moving up early next year, maybe February, so prayers specifically for the Lord to provide a place to live and a job to support myself when moving up and also for Him to guide my every step, to give me vision and passion for the people around me and to give me boldness in sharing His gospel with every opportunity I get.
“I will go before you, and level the exalted places, I will break in pieces the doors of bronze and cut through the bars of iron. I will give you the treasures of darkness and the hoards in secret places, that you may know that it is I, the LORD, the God of Israel, who call you by your name.” – Isaiah 45:2-3